My Heart Hurts

Apologies for the random pity post. 

I have days when it gets to me, as I’m sure it does other exclusive pumpers and mothers who tried so hard to breast feed. I see photos of babies smiling, with a mouthful of boob, and I so wish that was my Moo. It hits me like a sudden wave, absolute grief. It’s almost physical painful, my heart is hurting. I could curl tightly into a ball and sob.

I’m reading a book at the moment, that’s helping me understand why breastfeeding didn’t work. I get it. I know what could have been done differently. If I was to ever try again (which is unlikely), I’d know who to call and where to turn. But I don’t know what to do to get over the heartache of losing something that I never had. 

Answers on a post card.

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Posted on October 6, 2013, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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