The Time Has Come
I’m writing this with a very heavy heart. As part of my mental health recovery I’m winding down the pumping. The doctor I saw this morning has advised it, and if I’m honest, I’ve had enough.
I knew that this was coming, and I’ve been lowering my dose of Domperidone. I’m only pumping about 5oz a day now, enough for Moos milk at bedtime. I’ll lower the Domperidone from 20mg a day to 10mg a day tomorrow, and in a few days I’ll drop it completely. I might aim for my last pump to be the 20th February, depending on any engorgement, which is very unlikely without the drugs. Moo will be 31 months on the twentieth of this month.
Moo needs a sane mother a million times more than she needs breast milk. Pumping first thing each morning isn’t helping me start my day right. But I am terrified that I’ll look back on this and be devastated that I quit when I did. I can only do what feels right at the time and not worry about ‘what ifs’, which is something that I struggle with.
Any tips about weaning would be welcome. Thank you for your continued support. I may not reply to every message, but I am reading.